For the past 2 weeks, I have been struggling with a choice that I had been given.  I have made some very difficult decisions in my life, and I’ve been faced with some, seemingly impossible, challenges.  I can truthfully say that I cannot remember a more difficult choice, this issue has hurled me into a conflict that has taken me over 2 weeks to deal with.

It all started about 3 weeks ago when a very close friend told me he/she has a pretty serious health challenge…an eating disorder. 

Being in the health profession, I recognized the seriousness of the issue and I immediately thought of ways in which I’d be able to help.  The friendship is so important to me and I care about this person like a sibling.  There was no way I’d just abandon him/her.

After a good 2 weeks of back and forth communication (this person lives far away so I didn’t get to see him/her on a daily basis, and I was told to keep this a secret.)…I realized that I wasn’t getting anywhere.  I just couldn’t seem to get through.

I had a choice…tell someone who sees this person on a daily basis, or keep my mouth shut and mind my own business.  Now, after speaking to a friend of mine who is a retired counselor, and another friend who is also a therapist, I was able to see what my friend did (on some level of consciousness) by telling me.  Those who suffer with any type of self-destructive disorder, never tell people unless they are looking for help (this is probably subconscious). 

Anyway, by telling someone, I would probably save my friend’s life but this could destroy the friendship.  If I chose to keep my mouth shut it would likely preserve the friendship until this person dies…then I’d have to deal with the guilt of knowing that I could have prevented the death by betraying the trust and telling someone.  Decisions, decisions…

Ultimately, I chose to possibly sacrifice our friendship in order to get my friend the help he/she needed.  I have searched my memory and have no recollection of a more challenging task.  For a few days, my friend and I didn’t speak which was probably a result of my being too pushy rather than my friend discovering that I told someone.  In a way, I felt good about my choice…I felt that it was the right thing to do although I had to deal with the pain of losing the friendship.

At this time, it’s too late to make a long story short so I’ll wrap up by explaining one of the lessons I learned from all of this.

After feeling the pain of the loss of this close friendship, I began to feel better about it.  Somehow, I knew that everything would work out in everyone’s best interest.  I began to feel more positive about the whole situation and what had happened.  Within an hour of this attitude adjustment, my friend sent me a message, online, just to say hello.  I now have a deeper respect for the law of attraction and a much more secure belief in its power.

Pay close attention to how you feel throughout the day.  Never attempt to escape from negative feelings, just experience them without passing judgment and once they have run their course, move on.  You’ll know the point at which you have felt the emotion in its entirety and should begin to feel more positive. 

My favorite way to change my attitude from negative to positive is to think of all the things that I’m grateful for.  Start simply by feeling some appreciation for your bed, the clothes you’re wearing, your health, being alive…don’t worry about finishing this list, the most important thing is to start.